Spiffy goes to the vet.

Well after all the trouble the neighbor caused by calling the Animal control on me, I was able to get help form two sources that helpedSPIF me with the cost of the visit. There was a gift of $50.00 for the x-ray, and $35.00 for part of the care. That left me with $91.24 to pay and I could only come up with $70.00, so they carried the $21.24 until I can pay it. So now to the the cause of the limping that has been getting more pronounced. Spiffy has only 15% mobility in her left front leg because she has a lot of cloudy bone around her joint. I thought she was turning 13 this May, but I was wrong she is turning 14-it was right on the bill where her date of birth is listed. This I saw just after the vet had just told me that her life expectancy is 13, I thought it was 15 and the vet said if she lived to be 15 she would be living on borrowed time for two years. This did not make me very happy, I love her so much and I hope she will be ok for a while. I know I don't want her to suffer and even though she doesn't cry or whine at all I'm afraid it will only get worse. I have to give her an antienflamitory once a day and she doesn't like it and tries to lock her jaw so I can't get the pill in. Last night she was sitting by the back door when I went to let Molley out, so it was easy to get her in. Usually she doesn't want to come in the house. Spiffy was so cute on the way to the vets. I got her into the car and put the car seat belt around her, she put her head on the dashboard to look out and half way there she sat up and ducked her head and the seat belt came off her. She rode the rest of the way looking out at all the traffic and things going by. She weighs 71 lbs. and I got her in the car ok because I had the curb working for me, but at the vets I asked Mike if he could lift her into the car. I was so surprised when he came out we were already at the car and when I turned around after opening the door Mike was holding her like a puppy, and she looked happy. The only time I was concerned was when they were leading her to the x-ray room she turned around and the look on her face said, Mom your not leaving me are you--I told her it was ok and she was coming home with me and it was ok--so she turned around and went with Mike with no problem. I was surprised because she really hasn't had alot of contact with people because she has never been sick a day in her life so other than shots when she was young and her spaying at this vets shes not been around people much. I'm very proud of her and I Love Spiffy so very much!!!

feelings

i just want to yakyak a bit about the way i feel about my situation. sometimes i just can't get into things that used to interest me just awhile ago. i think it must be a backlash from the horrible things i've gone thru since i was inured in 03. it feels like i'm not exactly in my body. the shock of being crushed between my car and the one that pinned me surely put me in some crazy place i've never been in before. it just seems like i never came back from it. i got some respite from the money thing when i refied my house, but as a friend said to me, so how long have you been robbing peter to pay paul. somehow i ust never thought of it that way, but he was right. to me i was trying to get back what i lost-and the truth is i never did-i just got deeper in debt. there should be an automatic grant to people in my situation with the physical and financial recovery from such a tramatic inury. if i had lost my legs because of that accident i would have come out much better with the money side of it but at what cost. a few times that i had to be in a wheel chair, that was hard enough i sure am glad i don't have to be in one forever. anyway my point is that i just am not the same person. my security was and is threatened, i seem to be loosing my home because i have the payment up to where i just can't afford it and this month will be the second missed mortgage payment. its like i feel i don't have a future and thats pretty scarry. as a matter of fact my stomach in tied in knots most of time. well i'm falling asleep and i'm going to sign off now and go to bed--see ya!

another randon late night thought

It's late and I'm feeling numb with this killing in Vermont. It seems to me that we as a society should have learned from the horror in Colorado a few years ago. We have so many things to keep up with that we don't pay attention to the disturbing acts of someone crying out for help. I am sad for all the families that lost their children. For those professor's families and the family of the young man Cho that did the killings. I have heard kids at colleges complain about the attitude of the students that come from families with money. There seems to be a stuck up attitude that really can get under the skin of a student that has to work their way thru college. I've sold on campus at several colleges, and I have seen this attitude myself. I know it bothers alot of students that may not come from homes with a lot of money. One of my sons went away to college and he observed first hand the attitude of some students that come from money, acting as if they are better than the other students. I'm not saying that this is a reason to go off and take revenge on those students. I can see that with someone who is not stable, their ability to pass it off and not let it bother them so much might be inhibited. I don't think its a matter of gun control. I think that we as a society need to wake up and pay attention when we see someone who needshelp. To a grater extent the government has some blame here because some time ago they passed new ways of dealing with folks with mental problems, and alot of people that really needed to be in a facility were turned out to fend for themselves. This may not have been a good idea. I think we need to care more and come to the aide of those in need. It doesn't speak well for our society to see this horror repeat over and over again.

trying to sell my house

i have been trying to sell my house for a year and 2 months. the market took a huge slump just at the same time i decided to sell. my starting price was 465K and after talking to four real estate agents and viewing homes for sale in my area i had to lower my asking price to 424K. at that price i did not have enough equity left to have an agent sell it for me, i was going to have to do it my self. so now added to the list of making product for my business and taking care of the house and property, animals and the business end of the business i need to sell my house. now i must say that when someone is coming to see the house i have to clean up alot with all these animals. my very best is everyone elses worst nightmere. my house has only 750 sq. ft in the whole place including the backroom [which was never finished]. it was built onto the house with permits though, just the walls were never finished- the framing is showing. as i said before now were into it 1 year and 2 months and no offers-actually there was one and it was for about what i asking now 395K. i can't go any lower because i don't have much equity left. when i refied this last year, it was with the thought that before my first payment was due the house would be sold--hahaha what a joke that was. if only yea bla bla bla [if i had done this even just 6 mo. earlier i actually could have gotten my full asking price and in about a month] ah yea if only! now because of being ripped off in january [earlier post] i have missed one mortgage payment and have no chance of paying this month either. at this time i can't pay all my bills and utilities let alone a three thousand dollar mortgage payment. the house is 2 bedrooms 1 bath needs paint inside and outside, the hardwood floors need to be sanded and revarnished. the windows are the original, old style crank , some of them are frozen closed, some frozen open, a couple of them actually still work which is great for being new in 1942--wow thats older than me. the lot is really big compared to the size of must lots these days it's 64' by 109', i think thats about an eighth of an acre, i'm not that good with that stuff. i'mn trying to sell it and move to northern arizona. the town is just north of prescut, called paulden. i've also been looking in dewey, humbolt and chino valley. i've looked at several double wide mobils on anywhere from two to three acres. i need serious help now as i fall more behind with the bills my credit score is on a downhill slide making financing a nightmere for the new place. i have learned quite alot about financing for these Mobil or manufactured homes needing to be on a stemwall, which to my understanding is easier for financing and stability. i have fallen in love with a few propoerties and because my place isn't selling, someone else bought them. now my only hope is to find a grant to help me with the downpayment and closing costs. i don't have alot of time now that this month will be two missed payments and from my understanding i have one more month and then they issue a notice of default and then i have three months before i have to be gone. this is something i don't know much about and that is with the homestead protection on my home, how does that work? i will google a bit and probably find the answer. i am really new to this whole internet stuff, and i can say this is crazy good stuff. i wanted to have a computer for so long that when i finally got one i was so ready that a lot of the learning happened really quick. back to the house selling thing, i need help and if anyone who may read this is interested please email me at christine.morningstar@gmail.com. thank you--you just never know!!!please buy my house.

here we go again

i thought this harassment was over but an officer from the animal shelter arrived at my door because one of my neighbors has called to say my older chow/dobie mix named spiffy was lame. this is the same person that called last year and reported that i wasn't taking care of my animals. that time when the officer came into my house he could see i love and care for my animals very well. this officer actually told me that this is a bogus call and he would not be back. before that this same person called the humane society and they came in to see my 26 lb tom cats and at that time i turned some of the younger cats i was trying to place to them and they found good homes for them. this same neighbor also called the police to say that my car was sitting on the street for more than 3 days and the police came to tow it away. the guy i have watch my home and feed and care for my pets when I'm away tried to tell the officer that i was away on business [i was selling at 2 craft shows in santa cruz and cambria and i was camping in the santa cruz mountains with my teenage grandchildren during the week. this is our time together and it was our third year camping-great fun!] this officer told him to mind his own business and when my friend told him this is my business when she is away, the officer told him that he had better stop now or he would be going to jail. the officer put the warning notice on my car as the tow truck driver was towing my car away. when i got back home the impound fees were more than i could afford and i lost my car and all that was in it. as far as the humane society they kept the case open for a while so give me a chance to give up more cats if i wanted to. i just could not make a choice to give up the older cats that have lived their whole life with me.

random thoughts of course

this is my first ramble so it may seem a bit all over the place. actually thats me in a nut shell . i want to get this one thing out of my head and at the same time pass on a warning to possibally save anyone from making the same mistake i made. as i said in my bio i have been selling things i make at craft shows for 36 years and i learned a long time ago what to look for when choosing a craft show to sell at. it seems even a seasoned crafter like myself can be duped my someone you know and trust. here is the situation without giving last names for obvious reasons. this person was selling at my local beach show in encinitas when he told several crafters he had some spaces open in quartzsite az. at a rv show on the midway in a pet/crafts tent in january. this is a very slow time of year and an opportunity to sell at a show that reportedly draws a hundred thousand a day gives you a greater chance to make some real money--right? wrong, we all were told that everyone did well, but when i arrived to set up the day before the show opened and saw that there were only 2 returning sellers out of a possibility of 20 spaces, i was sick. sure enough none of us made anywhere our real money expections and as a matter of fact most of us took a loss. i seem to have taken the worst of it and at this point i have lost my checking account ,all of my credit cards are late by at least 2 months, my loans are both in default and i have missed a mortgage payment. i have managed to bring 2 accounts current and i am looking for a grant that will possible help me get current with the mortgage and larger loans. i've been trying to sell my home for a little over a year and this coupled with the market slump and i now also need a grant for the down payment and closing costs on a new place in northern arizona. i've been looking at double wide mobil homes on two and a half acres just north of prescut. now that i have had the chance to write this all down i hope i can get it out of my mind. the whiplash of the cash problems that this situation has caused will go on for some time--i need a miracal i guess. i don't want to boohoo about it but if anyone is considering doing this show, don't - go across the street to tyson w. and even though others have told me, that show is not doing as well as it used to it's still way better than what i just went through. oh yea and of course after i got back to my local show two other sellers told me that they had the same situation the year before.